Today is not a blue sky day. Today is a red river day.
The pain that led me to my hospital visit is back and not under control and runs through my body all day--constant and uncomfortable and consuming my every thought. I see red. I think red. I feel red.
I will try to not panic. I will try to be here but not too here in my body and not to let my mind run too far into red places.
I will be kind to myself.
I will eat.
I will have a chocolate popsicle.
I will breathe.